Holy shit. I need to get this out. I feel like shit why did I tell him all that. I just reminded myself that he doesn’t fucking love me. My heart just keeps breaking and breaking till one day I’m just going break completely. I’m trying to be strong so it won’t get to me but I can’t. I can’t deal with this. It’s too much. It’s too much to know the person you love the most doesn’t feel the same way for you. I gave him my all. I don’t want this feeling. Love is bullshit. It’s never as the say. Pain is not love. Love isn’t suppose to hurt. It isn’t suppose to hurt like this. I need to cry and sleep…. I never knew loving you would hurt this much.